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Mansi Nikam's avatar

Thank you so much for writing this. I have been grappling with this reality and change in my identity for years. Trying to find words, songs anything that could make me feel I'm not the only one seeing my concrete plans turn into a mirage I don't feel like chasing anymore. I relate to your post and I hope you find your way out soon , so do I <3

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the journal catacombs's avatar

thank you sm for reading! it really is a hard fight 😭 but i really believe that we'll get out of this haze soon

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Zoe's avatar

I can relate to this so intensely. The feeling of being so sure of the future a few years ago, and so completely unsure now. Thanks for your thoughts.

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the journal catacombs's avatar

thank you sm for reading! i hope you know you're not alone :) we're all out here wondering what we were made for

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Tina's avatar

I felt every single word of this, down to the part about the body shutting down, which I’ve never seen anyone talk about before!! It’s comforting to see someone else feel similarly, thank you so much for sharing 🫶🏽

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the journal catacombs's avatar

thank you sm for reading ❤️ i'm slowly learning to put my body first, and i hope you are able to do too!

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Zelda's avatar

I felt this on a molecular level. You are not alone! I had a cozy girls night with a best friend this evening (after months of being recluse, even with each other) and we touched on so many things you shared here. Vocalizing these typically internal processes and sharing it in safe spaces is so necessary right now. Appreciate the raw vulnerability and honesty here. 🫶🏽

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the journal catacombs's avatar

thank you sm, nothing fixes me up than a GOOD girls night! i'm so happy you have the support system🥰

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Charlie G's avatar

This is written so beautifully. As someone who has been haunted by all the little "lost futures", this really resonated with me. Stillness is an uncomfortable but important experience.

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the journal catacombs's avatar

thank you! i really poured my heart into this journal entry while spiraling at 3am 😭 it’s been tough, but hopefully, when we make it through, it’ll all be for the better.

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Elle's avatar

i love you my best girl forever and ever and ever <3

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the journal catacombs's avatar

i love you!!!

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Caroline Beuley's avatar

I absolutely loved the heart and vulnerability of this piece!! I also feel tremendous pressure to achieve in light of parents work and sacrifice.

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the journal catacombs's avatar

thanks girl, i really hope it gets easier to carry that burden for us someday

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Written in Velvet's avatar

I really resonated with every word you wrote, as an eldest daughter to parents with high expectations, this essay offered me some comfort <3

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the journal catacombs's avatar

i'm so happy it did! hope you can find peace in the stillness

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the journal catacombs's avatar

thank you so much for reading! hope you know you're never alone :)

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